sara ☼ sunshine

[august carson peterson]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,10,true][atrb=style, background-color: #fff; width: 505px; border-top: 10px #95D9DE solid, bTable] ☼ sunshine YOU CAN BE MY august was a boy who had a lot of different issues but he no one really told him what was going on because he apparently wasn't stable enough. not that he blamed them. he had a lot of blackouts recently and because of that he felt horrible and seemed to have more freak out moments. then causing him to blackout again. it seemed like when he had one, that he hurt someone. aggy didn't have an evil bone in his body and would never harm a soul. but the blackouts made him feel like he was anything but sweet and innocent. he hated it! hated the not knowing and the confusion and the closed space. it was a school day, and he had his own classes and he got out earlier. which was why he was in the courtyard. it was open and no one was in it just yet. with that said, he kind of bit his lip and relaxed. he was so relaxed that when the bell rang, he jumped out of his skin before sighing. soon the courtyard would fill up with more bodies but he was going to try to stay here. too bad the moment people began to crowd him, august began to feel himself drifting away and he had to calm down. the only way to do that, was to run as fast as he could. which was what he did, he ran out of the gates to the school until he came to the square where there wasn't many people. he sighed and sat on the curb for a moment and tried to breath a little. finally when he caught his breath and it seemed like the darkness had faded, august stood up and saw a diner. he was kind of hungry and ice cream was always a good way to keep the darkness away because it made him happy. when he walked inside the diner and sat down, he thought it looked kind of homey. it was a surprise that he had never really been here but then again, he usually kept to the school grounds where there was people there to protect him from himself or others. he had been here for over five months and was finally seeing the outside world of eauton. when the waitress came up to him he smiled, "can i have a bowl of ice cream and a cup of water?" she smiled and turned to go get him it and came back with his bowl of ice cream and glass of water. he started to eat it and felt quite content with himself for a change and made a mental note to visit this place once more. 454 WORDS HII JANET I LOVE YOU FOR JANET AND SARA ---------------- CREDIT

[sara hope sims]

stuck in her daydream

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silence, well it was one the most prized possessions she really had here at this school even if it wasn’t exactly a place where she was allowed to be silent. there was group therapy and other therapy sessions where she had to talk even if she wasn’t really fond of it. she never said much but just enough so they didn’t drug her up and get her to talk unwillingly. the eighteen year old, well she didn’t in a normal setting talk all that much so the fact that she had too well it was just rather horrifying and she didn’t admire it or look forward to it all, but then again who did. most everyone shared a mutual feeling of feeling out of place. there was not a soul here by choice or so did she think. people wanted to get better, but sara, well she felt like she was hearing the reputation for getting here was all a facade. it all scared her, so she mostly stayed locked up in her room or she hid out in places where she could study and then there was class and the required gatherings. outings, well she was going on her first outing, because she just needed the air today. the eighteen year old, well she had walked to the diner that she had heard about donna’s diner. it had a nice ring; dd’s. she just wanted something else besides what the school had to offer! she wasn’t too fond of fast food, but it was a diner, so maybe it wouldn’t totally count? it just depended on how quickly they fired things up.

the girl was sitting facing a wall and waiting for cheese cake, because it sounded kind of good rather than actual food. suddenly in the midst of spacing out a curly haired boy sat down in her dead view. the only reason she noticed is because obviously the movement and zoning out well the wall didn’t move. she blushed a little hoping that the person didn’t think she had been staring at him as he watched down. he ordered desert as well and she just watched as the waitress kind of left and went back and brought him his ice cream. it didn’t make sense that she didn’t have her cake by now. unless they were baking it! the lady came back with cheese steak....well that made sense the wait, but she tried catching her attention as she walked away, but she was so kind of silent and it appeared the lady hadn’t heard her as she said ”i said cheese cake.” she looked down at the sandwich and sighed pushing the plate forward and leaned against the window her blue eyes off into space again lost in curls that managed to kind of stay, but she was really actually day dreaming and not staring at the boy eating ice cream.

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[august carson peterson]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,10,true][atrb=style, background-color: #fff; width: 505px; border-top: 10px #95D9DE solid, bTable] ☼ sunshine YOU CAN BE MY to realize someone walked past you, meant you had to be paying attention to your surroundings and that was something the young peterson boy did often because he had an anxiety problem. with those social anxieties meant he was hypersensitive to his surroundings and the change in them. he felt her presence before he saw the blonde in the booth behind her and he held his breath as he sat.. he didn't want her to talk to him because sometimes people talked to people and that was freaky enough to watch than to be a part of. especially here because you didn't know who was normal and who wasn't. even though no one was really normal and there was no definition of 'normal' but he just meant people who didn't go to the mental school full of people he was entirely scared of. this girl looked decently normal and she didn't try to hurt him and he knew the waitress was normal. or well at least not going to the school. she could just be a crazed adult but that wasn't the point! the point here was august was scared of the things around him and he felt the girl's eyes on him. it felt very creepy and he just kind of ignored it and began to eat his ice cream as she seemed to either, a. wasn't a talkative person. b. thought he was insane and wasn't going to bother or c. he was getting what he wants and the world didn't entirley hate him. or he'd believe the last one if it didn't seem like her eyes were boring holes into the back of his head and kind of freaking him out. he had first chose to ignore it and clutch sam his bear and bite down hard on his lip and felt the urge to go hide under the table and eat, so no one would look at him. it was awkward to eat with stares and he knew she was staring at him. he just knew it but he heard her words and he frowned because he didn't want someone to be sad. he knew how life could kind of suck and he looked at his ice cream and at sam i am. "okay sam i'll give it to her." it was his idea but aggy tended to be silly and give more credit to his stuffed teddy than he did himself and it was kind of just the poor boys personality. he was still quite young in a lot of his mind set and he stood up, grabbing sam's hand and his ice cream and went to sit in front of her. putting it down, he pushed it to her and bit his lip hard, blood starting to drip into his mouth. "you wanted dessert. sam i am said i should share," he said, pointing at his bear and kind of clutching it. his brown curls bounced as he moved, making him look even younger as he clutched the bear and his aura screamed young kid. "y..y..you should have dessert if you want dessert..." his stomach was clenched with fear because he didn't know why he was starting a conversation or sharing his food, things he usually avoided more than anything in the world. it was kind of like running in front of a bus for him but he was managing. even if he was stuttering a bit because of the panic and fear that was flowing through his body. 590 WORDS YAY LOVE FOR JANET AND SARA ---------------- CREDIT

[sara hope sims]

stuck in her daydream

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it was easy to really mistake what the girl was saying because she was so quiet, but a cheese steak sandwich and cheese cake were two different things. however, she wasn’t going to make a big deal of it, she was just going to enjoy the silence and not eating anything, because she really wasn’t into eating this and when the lady came back she’d pay her and be gone and back to her dorm room where she’d disappear back into her bed or a book or something. that is if her roommate wasn’t blasting music or something. sara, well she was growing more and more home sick being here in georgia without her mama and all this stuff going on. she really did feel like she had no voice at all and it made her extremely sad! she felt almost hopeless in a place that was supposed to be giving her more hope. she didn’t mean to have her eyes settle on the curly hair boy, she really didn’t it just kind of happened that he was in her eye shot and she got lost looking in his direction.

suddenly, he moved though and it kind of shook up the element in her view and she felt herself blush a little bit, because it seemed like he was coming her way and she felt her stomach kind of clench up, because she really didn’t know what to say or do if he was coming to confront her. a part of her wanted to coward and run away, but he was sitting in front of her now and she kind of scooted back into the seat and glanced down at the bear and then up at him. she opened her mouth to speak and apologize for staring at him, but then he said that he heard she wanted dessert and him and sam decided to share. a friendly smile crossed her face. ”that was very sweet of you.” she said in a bit of a low nervous tone. he looked just as afraid of her as she looked him though really and it made her feel kind of bad, because maybe she had came off as scary when she was staring. she couldn’t see herself, so she had no clue what her face looked like at all because well there was no mirror she hoped not though. ”thank you sam.” she said glancing down at the bear and then up at him because he seemed to bite into his lip and she could see the blood. she reached for a napkin and looked at him a little nervously. ”i’m not going to hurt you okay, you’re just bleeding.” she said and reached out and patted the lip lightly with the napkin. then he spoke again and she smiled a little brighter. ”you’re incredibly kind thank you.” she said a little more chipper, but not over doing it.

”you wouldn’t be interested in cheese steak would you?” she asked not wanting it to go to waste or eat on his dessert if she had nothing to offer in return. sara knew it was the sweetest gesture she encountered so far, but she couldn’t be rude and not offer something in return. ”i’m sara by the way.” she said talking a little more than she normally would, but he was so sweet and he seemed so wary! she wanted to make him feel comfortable in his efforts and sitting with her.

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[august carson peterson]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,10,true][atrb=style, background-color: #fff; width: 505px; border-top: 10px #95D9DE solid, bTable] ☼ sunshine YOU CAN BE MY the boy just knew how it was to never get what you wanted and for some reason, he didn't want the blonde girl to not have a dessert. a part of him was going to order her a cheese cake but he didn't have money for that too. but he also didn't want to talk to the waitress lady again because it was a scary situation. talking to people. which was why august didn't understand his want to cheer up this girl. maybe because her quietness reminded him of himself and he'd want someone to help him. to give him what he asked for or something close. he just knew what it was like and he didn't want her to be disappointed or hurt like he was in his past and continuously onward. he didn't want to be here but he was. he wanted to be away from people on an island where he can't blackout and hurt people. a place where the peterson boy could just be happy and be free of this sadness and be himself. but he couldn't and with that, he got up to bring this girl his ice cream and he just clutched sam as he stared at her face. he wasn't trying to tell her thoughts to see if she was angry or scared or sad. aggy didn't want someone to be scared of him because he wasn't a scary being. so when she said it was sweet of him, he sighed with relief and his death grip on sam lifted a bit as he relaxed into his seat and felt less anxious and scared and a little more comfortable. when she talked to sam, well august put the bear up to his mouth and said in a changed voice, "you're welcome." then her hand was coming towards him and he froze with fear. was she going to hurt him? he felt himself slip, he was falling. it felt like he was falling 'noo,' he thought, trying to keep from disappearing. from hurting her. she said she wasn't going to hurt her and then she quickly patted his lip and when her arm was away, august relaxed. he didn't feel like he was about to disappear to no where land and he sighed again before smiling softly at her. his finger going to his lip before sucking on it and clutching sam once more. "i just didn't want you sad for not getting your dessert." august thought it was kind of her to ask him if he wanted the cheese steak and he nodded. it wasn't like he would let food go to waste because he didn't get much of it when he was younger. just some leftovers of his siblings and small pieces of things here and there. so, the boy nodded, "thank you." he bit into it and it tasted kind of good, so he smiled. it wasn't ice cream but it was food and he smiled at her because it was the sweetest gesture to him. it was small but sweet all the same. they were both kind of being sweet with offering up there food. aggy just didn't think he'd get something out of it. usually because he wasn't used to girls giving him food. or well anyone giving him food. "im august," he said, realizing he didn't tell her his name yet. 567 WORDS <333 FOR JANET AND SARA ---------------- CREDIT

[sara hope sims]

stuck in her daydream

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honestly, the fact that he was walking over here really made her nervous but then he sat down and he was being nice and offering her some of his dessert and it couldn’t be a sweeter moment. she didn’t know what she really did to deserve this, but the curly haired boy, well he seemed like a rather genuine individual in his attempts and wasn’t going to hurt her for staring. she couldn’t not talk after a little bit, because it seemed like it did take a lot for him to come over here and offer it to her. sara, well she wasn’t a scary person, but she could see how her staring might be construed as creepy. he seemed to relax after she spoke which got her to kind of smile. then he brought the bear to his mouth acting as if it was the bear talking and that was too cute! ”you’re very sweet too sam.” she said just for good measure because she had been talking to the both of them.

she knew it probably wasn’t appropriate to touch at a strangers mouth, but he was bleeding and she didn’t want him to bleed and or possibly drip blood on sam. he looked scared though really he did. ”be careful with your lip...you don’t want to get blood on sam or...don’t bite it so hard i promise not to touch it again.” she said seeing as he didn’t seem to like that and held the bear tighter. ”thank you it its the nicest thing someone’s pretty much ever done for me.” she replied back with a hint of a nod. she was a little nervous now sense she had scared him once more.

sara smiled when he nodded that he’d eat the cheese steak sandwich! it was great that it wasn’t going to go untouched and she was glad that it could be a good meal to someone especially because he offered up his dessert so nicely. ”you’re welcome.” she said politely before she slowly dipped the spoon in the ice cream a bit hesitant, because she did kind of feel bad taking someone else’s treat. she wouldn’t eat the whole thing just a bit, surely he could eat more than she could. teen boys were growing boys! not that he was big or anything she was just sure you might have a hankering after eating some sandwich...meal...dessert it fit nicely. ”nice to meet you august..i’m sara.” she said warmly after taking the ice cream down she didn’t want to talk with food in her mouth. ”its also nice to meet sam...” she said figuring the bear was a significant part and it would be rude to not say it was nice to meet him because it was!

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